This past few weeks have been ones of cosmic integrity.
We had the Full Moon in Virgo, offering a logistical, practical approach to making decisions and taking action that is more grounded in goals/values. At the same time, the Sun and Mercury RX (retrograde) shadow period moved into Pisces. Pisces is the most dreamy of all of the signs, giving us the space to dwell deep in our intuition/inner psych, exploring our inner being/desires. Chiron, the Wounded Healer, moved from Pisces into Aires, a fiery actionable zodiac that is going to be shaking things up over the next several years but especially right now as we learn to integrate this new energy.
I found all of these cosmic energies present in my week.
I found myself making different choices (big & small) that are more in alignment with the version of myself I am seeking to become.
My focus is on living out of total truthfulness and integrity. Opportunities rise to test this every day.
Last week, I was half way home before realizing I left the healthy dinner ingredients in the fridge at work. In my head I went back and forth for a block deciding if I should go back or just get burritos. I know my body is asking for better nutrition and eating habits. Out of the norm, I went back and picked up the dinner from work. I felt something shift in side of me as soon as I turned back. This little action put me more in integrity with myself, my values, and my goals. I felt a sense of contentment and peace wash over me.
On the drive home, I found myself visualizing this future of possibility, opportunities, and experiences that I am ready to have. I had to come to terms with the fact that in order to do anything of the things i'm being guided to, something would need to be released to create more space and time. I knew this was coming, I just didn't want to think about when it would happen.
I have a history of staying in jobs, relationships, experiences much longer than I should. Feelings of disloyalty and abandonment rise. I have always preferred to try to protect others while spiraling myself into chaos. This is something that is now shifted because it absolutely had too.
Last Monday, I walked into work knowing that I would be having an important conversation. This was scary and something I thought was going to be hard. I still knew that I had to do it, and I did so knowing that the energy of the Virgo/Pisces comic alignment was on my side. I had to make this logistical/practical choice to continue to journey into my purposeful experience in this life. I made the decision to re-create my position and cut my hours in half aka cut my income in half. I didn't know if it was possible, it was just what I decided I needed. I asked the Goddess to support me in using my voice, to let the conversation be easy, and to let the outcome be what was for the greater and higher good of all involved.
Fears were there the whole time, my inner voice was telling me not to do it because benefits, money, etc.... I've come to realize I don't think those thoughts every go away. My truth has just grown louder than the fear. I checked my email, finding a sign from the Universe supporting the decision. I had the conversation in the next 10 minutes. My voice was strong, my energy was lifted, and the choice fully supported by the team.
Being in integrity with what I knew I needed in my job, taking action, and trusting myself helped me to break a cycle of living out of fear of abandoning and being disloyal to those who have supported me.
After the conversation, I felt a weight lifted, a total sense of relief. My heart and soul were dancing knowing that I would have more time to be and become. This decision put me in higher integrity with my goals for the Goddess Leadership Academy and my personal life.
My intuition guided me, the Goddess protected me. Virgo, Pisces, Mercury, and Chiron all were there cheering me on.
Trust and Faith are what move me through each time a decision is to be made and each time it's getting a little bit easier. The integration of the higher realms guidance with the intentional decisions made in this human experience, for me, this is a space of Practical Magic.
What would it look like for you to choose to be in alignment, more in integrity? To let the magic in and trust in yourself? To take practical steps in the direction of your dreams?
I'd love to know. I'd love to hear your stories. If you're open, please share. Our stories are what remind us were all connected.